#14 God never intended for us to be attached to anyone else but Him. Genesis 29:34. #60000thoughts #talkingtomyself
Leah had tender eyes---weary from wanting to be loved. Genesis 29:31-35. What a way to spend your life. Not really knowing your worth, your love. Jacob wanted to marry her sister, Rachel. He was willing to serve Laban every single day---no malice there---for he could wait, his happiness in heaven. It ended up being 21 years and he then stealthily left. And Leah, never to be forgotten, would become the mother of the progenitor of Christ Himself.
I've spent way too much of my life wanting to be loved, but on this monumental day in my history, I must say I am loved beyond all I dared believe. And I know it in deep places I have not known before.
We just read that God was in the place and Jacob knew it not.
God was in a DM and we knew it not.
I volunteered to help my pastor husband, Bob, look at his birthday messages---he doesn't know how to maneuver through FB.
There in the DM was 42 messages. One read: "Call me. I have nothing negative to say." It was from the pastor that let Bob go as executive pastor of 27 years at the same church. We left in bewildering disappointment even though we were invited to stay. Our choice to leave. Lost lifelong friends we had babies with---the ones our kids grew up with. It has been 19 years since we left. And now a DM to reach out. The request had been sitting in Bob's DM for 4 months. God was in this place. I am beyond words to say Bob did reach out. This is the first time I have responded on social media to the incident---out of respect for the decisions made and out of respect for the people who carried the decision out.
There is one blaring word God said to me through this journey:
Genesis 29:34. Leah has a 3rd son and says: At last, my husband will now become attached to me.
God never intended for me to be attached to any strong person. Any strong pastor.
I was a mess. I still am a mess. But, I am a beautiful mess.
God stood me on my feet again and it has been one of the best things that has ever happened to me.
PHOTO: God was in this place and we knew it not.
The #1 pastor said he was just trying to grow his church. God was in this. Always is. God was in this move.
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