3 - "The Morning Stars Still Sing" Genesis 3-5;

I bought loads of bargain furniture from the Bombay Outlet back in the day.  They knew me well.  I would always have three kids in tow for the quick look around the tiny bargain-of-the-century store.  I was trying to teach Barrett to be kind and Brooke to just talk in public.  As we left the store that January morning, I encouraged Barrett to say something kind to our friend, Shirley, behind the counter.  I was hoping for a "bye bye." With his quick  dimpled 5-year-old hand, he let the exit door slam, turned around immediately and said with great gusto:  "If you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it."  Genesis 4:6-7. "Oh, OK. That's interesting," replied the clerk. I can still see her face. I've thought about her all these years.

I taught my kids that verse because the one before it says: "Why are you angry? Why is your face downcast?" I wanted you to learn to deal with your own hearts and not everybody else's, especially siblings. But, it's for me this morning. I'm waiting out a recovery from a freak fall on November 30th.  3 more X-rays today.  Still having awful spasms in my back and knees from the spill.  But more than what is happening physically, I need to look at my own heart, deal with my own stuff. And as I do ...  Things aren't as they appear.  And a tear falls.  I'm just not where I thought I would be in life or in soul or story or in friends.  So, I'll keep walking in that darkness, trusting, no light.  And I'll keep asking the same question the 3 Wise Men asked in Matthew 2---where is He? The North Star brought them to the Savior in a Manger.  The North Star sang. The Morning Stars still sing. Job 38:7---from that First Day of Creation to this very day.

My Prayer for today is for deliverance from what grabs my soul that is not right and good and just.  I've been more concerned about my body healing than my soul healing.  Ask yourself the good questions: Why is my soul going limp? 

                                                                                                                                                                                                          Photo: Brooke | Blair | Barrett circa 1986 A Sunday Morning. After Hope Church. Sitting on the swing at 4824 Kilpatrick Avenue, Fort Worth, Texas.  Our First House where the morning stars sang.