We open the book of Psalms. It's a Hand reaching out to grasp ours in the midst of our storms and tears and confusion and fears. I have assumed wrongly about life: I have wanted God to step in and rescue me from all my struggles with people and life. Relieve me of this oppression. Replace it with Rest. But what God did: He has used my Job experiences "to uncover a Rest beneath the struggle that no Anguish can destroy. The struggle with fear and pain will continue. Only in the storm will you know There is an Anchor." 66LL. This is not what my world tells me. My world wants me to have no struggles, no worries, no pain. If you do, people assume that you are: Not walking with God. Not trusting God. Not understanding God and His Goodness. Not in God's will. All of the Above. A friend said to me the other day: "Let's just be positive and trust God." Or, in other words: Let's just deny what is really going on. Ps 1:1 - Blessed is the man who doesn't walk in the counsel of his disillusioned friends but in Truth. Ps 2:6 - As for me, I have installed my King...I take Refuge in God not things working out. >Ps 3:3 - You, O LORD, are a Shield about me, the One Who lifts my head through t.h.i.s. PHOTO: The trees in front of Robyn's house in Pagosa Springs. Behind me, the San Juan Forest burning unexpectedly, uncontrollably, unnerving. Meditate on these psalms day and night.
A String of Pearls
Read with me cover-to-cover in 2025. Start the Old & New Testaments together on January 1. About 3 chapters per day. About 15 minutes of your day. Join us as the axe of Biblical Love thaws the frozen parts (66LL) in our hearts. My focus in 2025 is counseling yourself from the Word. We average 60,000 thoughts per day. Take courage. Talk to yourself from Truth. I am more emotional and pensive and overly-sensitive than most. I need to know how to truly live.
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Saturday, August 9, 2025
Friday, August 8, 2025
219 - "Now My Eyes See You" Job 40-42
“Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him?
Let him who accuses God answer him!”
Then Job answered the Lord:
“I am unworthy—how can I reply to you?
I put my hand over my mouth.
Job 40:2-4
And God answers once again.
This time from a storm.
We are not prosecutors in this life of ours.
God is not the defendant.
He is the king.
May we learn to wrestle well. This day.
With hands over our classy mouths.
With hearts right over our clenched fists.
With heads held high over our cluttered minds.
"Then the Lord said to Job: Will the faultfinder contend with the Almighty? Let him who reproves God answer it.” Job 40:2
Job's Answer to his LORD is just beautiful and forces one to deal with those existential questions: Who is God and what is He up to in Job's life; in my life; in your life.
Job's Response: Behold, I am insignificant; what can I reply to You. I lay my hand on my mouth. Job 40:4 "I will add no more."
"I have heard of you, God, by the hearing of the ear;
But now my eye sees You. Job 42:5-6
Retract and I
Repent in Dust and Ashes.
When God comes up from behind and we sense His Presence
When God comes up through strangers unaware
When God comes up within and we know His Goodness,
When God comes up to surprise us to uncover His Goodness ...
and we learn that
We are not the Prosecuting Attorney.
God is not the Defendant.
Nor does He need us to defend Him and
pretend that all is well even though He has allowed suffering.
"God extinguished all the lights that had been guiding Job on a pleasant path through life, in order to gain entrance into Job's heart with Light of His Presence."66LL Are we mad that God has nudged us off the pleasant path? There is only One Source. There is only One Light. We want God to undo all our problems and steer us back to that pleasant path. But, God is uncovering His Beauty, His Presence in you and me. So be it. Amen & Amen.
With my hand over my mouth.
Thursday, August 7, 2025
218 - "Where Are You? At Your Wits End?" Job 38-39; Acts 28
What causes a man to repent? When he hears the words of God? When he humbles himself before the Everlasting to Everlasting Hope. When he bows his heart before Divine Providence giving full sway. When he sees with the eyes of his heart that God even provides prey for ravens---why not for me? Job 38:41.
Wednesday, August 6, 2025
217 - "Listen For The Sounds of God" Job 35-37 Acts 27
Tuesday, August 5, 2025
216 "Better To Fall Into The Hands of God than the Hands of Men" Job 33-34
There are parts of this story about Job and his fair-weather friends that are simply so sad. Here's a man who has lost his 10 children. Lost his good health. Lost his community. Job does not even have one child to console him about the death of the others. There are no words in the English language to communicate the extent of this devastating loss. No Words. Instead! An Accusation of his sin: ~ Job 34:36 ~ It appears that Job needs to be tested to the utmost for answering and questioning God but that is not the rendering of these words. God shows "the Satan" which is a position not a person, that here is a man who loves God. Job loves God for Who He is. He has every earthly reason to give up. He has all of God to hang on to. Look at what is not being said: Job is not cursing God; Job is not asking for blessings. This story is all about restoration not about sin. And the words of David fall into play: It is better to fall into the Hands of God rather than into the hands of men (Heb 10:34). Job knew that. He was imperfectly fully committed to God and God knew it. God treated Job with utmost respect and "personal sentiment"---Job is "my servant."
Why can't we fall forward into Loving Arms and speak our heart? God will make us aright. He will set us back on our feet again. He will make all things new. Our God, this very moment, is knocking on the door of our hearts---a progressive move, Rev. 3:20. Why won't we listen? God is Powerful, Omniscient, and Good in our darkest days. Trust. How can we not? To Whom else shall we go? To What else this day?
The ears test words like the tongue tastes food. Job 34:3-4. Let us discern together what is right and learn what is good. May we all listen to words that matter for our lives. Job 34:29 "if God is silent" ... then what? What stirs in you as we read chapter after chapter after chapter about a man who lost his 10 children? Job is trying to make sense of his suffering. Suffering with no explanation. Elihu explodes cause evidently the older generation should make sense of it all. What's his pull? What stirs in you? I keep thinking about how Job and his wife lost their 10 children and I wonder what God is saying to Job in his silence? I keep thinking of a very old quote: "The first step to sanctity is self-knowledge." Job is wrestling with what is really going on inside of him. "If we stay within the darkness, stick close to the Cross, through death we will come to know the God Who reveals Himself in the process of dying and renewal." Something beautiful is happening to Job on the inside. We know that because we know the rest of the story. Am I staying within my own darkness, sticking close to His Cross, and dying to my pride and fears so that He may reveal and renew my spirit. Have mercy on us, O God! God is speaking through His Word. What matters more than listening and living. It seems strange as we read this story that Job's friends could not see what was going on inside of their hearts. God spoke directly to their hearts in those days. They had no Word of God; held no pages to turn. How far was Ur from the Garden of Eden? How many stories had been passed along since Creation? All we know at this point is the Creation Story, Adam & Eve, Cain and Abel, the Tower of Babel. And then, a righteous man, in a far off city of Ur. A man accused of saying "my wound is incurable, though I am without transgression." Job 34:6. Where on earth was the compassion of these men? I mean, he lost 10 children. We are not punished for our sins. And there is truth in Job 32:8 that it is the spirit in man, the breath of the Almighty, that makes man understand. O God, help us to understand, to know wisdom, for the place where we sit this day.
PHOTO: The Grandeur. Washington State. Where my husband grew up and found God.
Monday, August 4, 2025
215 "I Am Just A Byword" Job 31-32; Acts 26
Have you ever thought you were that right? I mean really right! And more right than God.
Save us, God, from ourselves.
when my children were all around me,
John Bunyan writes that it is not the power of the pen or the spoken word but the very spirit of God Who changes us. "Nothing less than the Spirit of God" can make us praying women. Father, as we see Your Signature over the stories of our days, our lives, help us each one to ask for Your Wisdom and Your Power to for what it is that we face this present moment. Help us to be present and name what is not of You.
PHOTO: The sun sets on Waco, Texas. It's the same sun wherever you live. But it sets on our stories from every kind of wrestle. This sun set on my aloneness---what will I do with it?
Sunday, August 3, 2025
214 - Job 28-29
When the waters stir. Here are the words of a man who has lost more than we can fathom. A man trying to muster every ounce of trust in a Good God Who "has taken away my right, the Almighty, who has made my soul bitter." And Job promises that as long as he has breath, he will not speak falsehood nor deceive. My problem is not thinking I am righteous, I know I'm not. Job was the other side of the coin. "I will not put away my integrity from me." Job 28:5. The last disaster that I was in caused me to question the motives of others rather than pursue righteousness and what was going on inside of my own heart. Job may be boastful of his righteousness but he is falling forward in a direction where few land. And he said: "Behold, the fear of the Lord, that is wisdom." Job longed for wisdom! May it be the cry of our hearts in the midst of any mess. Wisdom far above the price of gold and jewels. Is that what I long for in the midst of my health issues? Job did. That a man could live with no reproach, in such enormous suffering, and not let go of his trust in a Good God! No words.
Saturday, August 2, 2025
213 - "Hold Fast, my Righteousness" Job 24-27
"Christ beside me, Christ before me, Christ behind me, Christ within me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me." (St. Patrick The Confession of St. Patrick).
Job isn't recognized anymore by his friends or his community. Job's reply: Job 27:2 “As God lives, Who has taken away my right, and the Almighty, who has made my soul bitter, as long as my breath is in me, and the spirit of God is in my nostrils, my lips will not speak falsehood, and my tongue will not utter deceit."
Job 27:6 "Hold fast, my Righteousness." Hold fast, my Friend. As long as breath is in us. What is our hope when God cuts us off? This we know, the Almighty is always doing us good, even in suffering. Hold fast! Those two words mean a great deal to me. My counselor, Bruce, for 3 years frequently ended with “hold fast.” It’s what I remember. It’s a beautiful theme to live by. Hold Fast. I think of my bff Nancy who lost 18-year-old Drew in a tragic auto accident. That’s what she has done—-held fast to Him all the rest of her days.
PHOTO: It's one of my favorite spots on earth. We are headed there on Friday. Clear Lake overlooking Mount Rainier. And my heart h.e.r.e. overflows today as I bid my spot farewell and Turn Around to face some problems that I cannot articulate. Overflowing with gratitude for I am more persuaded, more convinced, more oh-so-sure, that my God is fighting for me in Untold Unseen Ways
Friday, August 1, 2025
212 - "Can't Figure God Out, Then Give Up the Illusion of Control and Predicting...Discover the Freedom of Hope" Job 20-23
"I go forward, but he is not there, and backward, but I do not perceive Him; on the left hand when he is working, I do not behold him; he turns to the right hand, but I do not see him. But God knows the way that I take." Such beauty from the heart of Job. Followed by a haughty confidence that Job will come out as gold. And it is that statement right here that Job will repent of uttering---that all his uprightness being tried by God will produce good gold. Oh, may we see what stirs within us. May we see what remains in our lives as permitted by a very Good God to drive me to Him as my Center, my Source, my All. God was silent to Job. The dark night of the soul. And Job continued to fall forward and sit before God in mystery. And Job is learning just like you and me to rest before God in trust of whatever He does. Job knew way down deep that his suffering was not punishment for his sin that he could stop by living better. In our darkest nights, there is hope that awaits and invites us to love in ways we never knew. "When we cannot figure God out, we will give up the illusion of predictability and control and discover the joy and freedom of hope." Father, You never allow more suffering than necessary for our very best life. That's what the sages say. That's what I wrestle with. It's just hard to fathom how much as in the story of Job. Help this next generation to see things from your perspective. Help us all to live like this servant of yours who kept coming back to you day after day, wrestling with the deep things.
Thursday, July 31, 2025
211 - "My Redeemer Will Stand on the Earth" Job 16-19
Wednesday, July 30, 2025
210 - "Pain Unassuaged" Job 14-15
God numbers my steps: doesn't He watch over my every sin? It is sealed up in a bag. Fastened tight. Job 14:16
"The Lord must prevail against all who contend with him. God may send disease and pain, we may lose all comfort in those near and dear to us, every hope of earthly happiness may be destroyed, but God will receive the believer into realms of eternal happiness." Matthew Henry
Do not seal up my transgressions in a bag, nor note my iniquities in thy register." He doesn't!
Job's friends called his tears poured out to God "windy knowledge," Job 15:2, "unprofitable talk." They went so far as to say that Job is doing away with the fear of God. Job 15:4. Oh! This father sits in an enormous enigma. His pain is so overwhelming that he cannot see straight to God. And, yet, his "miserable comforters" inquire if God's comforts are too small for Job? May we hold our wisdom for we walk not in those moccasins.
C.S. Lewis said that when pain is to be born, a little courage helps more than much knowledge from your friends, a little human sympathy means more than much courage, and the least tincture of the Love of God is more than all of that. May we give away this day the Love of God. Help us to reach deep to love deeply.
PHOTO: The view of the base of Mount Rainier in Eatonville. A few tears had just spilled out. Jesus had nowhere to lay his head. He understands aloneness. Job was so alone in this. From the top of the world to safe in His Savior's Arms, still and alone.
Tuesday, July 29, 2025
209 - "Though You Slay Me, I Will Trust You" Job 12-13
Job's friend has no mercy on him. Zophar tells a man who just lost his 10 children that he did not get what he deserved. Job is not in shock, not disconnecting, ... No, the man is wrestling with his sin. Job is asking God in Job 13:23: How many are my sins? Make me know my sins! His deep heart-wrenching thoughts are coming from a good place in his heart yet some thoughts like Job 13:3 cannot possibly be from a good place: "I want to speak to the Almighty and I desire to argue my case with God." Can we really argue with God? So what's the point here? There are both good and bad residing in our hearts at the same time.
How beautiful that Job is leaning, falling forward, on the Almighty. He knows his limits. "Though He slay me, I will hope in Him, yet I will argue my ways to His Face." Job 13:15. There it is again. Such Good! Such Bad!
And what touches me is that God calls us in this passage to withhold our judgment on man. Let the Almighty judge Job, not Zophar, not me. We are to move in love into people's lives, not trying to straighten them out. Zophar believed in a prosperity-type gospel. But the question arises even today. If bad things happen to you continually, like Job, you must be doing something wrong. What beauty pours out from Job's lips in the midst of his confusion and chaos when he says: "I will trust Him," ... No matter what God does---and here is a man who has suffered immense loss. Job knows something of the Greatness of God that most do not. Let us strive not to be "worthless physicians" (Job 13:4) helping others with our platitudes of words and actions that really don't mean that much. Let us say with Job: I will trust you God in this present circumstance that I am in, this very day.
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Monday, July 28, 2025
208 - "Listen To Your Life" Job 10-11
What really touches those deep places inside of us?
Oh, to have meaningful conversations that touch eternity?
Here's a man, desperate for God & community & grace & compassion.
His suffering is so great, he just wants God to leave. him. alone. Job 10:20
Not the holy posture toward God we hope to have--- but it is where we all live at times.
"I will argue my ways to His Face." And I can hear the sarcastic arrogance in my own voice.
Here are his friends offering him pat advice: you need wisdom, Job. Maturity! Job 11:6
Why is it we are all so quick to "fix" whatever is wrong. Why can't we rest!
Father, may we listen to ourselves this day, this trial.
May we fully be present in the pain not just pleasure.
May we see Your Hand humbling our so needy souls.
Help us today to love well, listen well, & suffer well.
"Listen to your life.
See it for the fathomless mystery that it is.
In the boredom and pain of it,
no less than in the excitement and gladness;
touch, taste, smell your way to the holy & hidden heart of it
because in the last analysis all moments are key moments &
Life Itself Is Grace.
Frederick Buechner
PHOTO: Small Group sitting on a dock on the Quarries Bay, Austin Texas. Listening to our lives and what stirs within. What stirred that day for me: being passed over again ... what will I do with that? Though He slay me, I will trust Him.
Sunday, July 27, 2025
207 - "My House of Cards Collapsed" Job 8-9
Job 9:13 How can mere mortals get right with God? Job 9:20 God wins, hands down. So what's the point?
Job 10:2 "How does this fit into what you once called 'good'? Giving me a hard time---how is that good, God? Job, like the rest of us, believes "God should relieve his struggles and replace it with rest. But God uses struggle to uncover a rest beneath the struggle that no anguish can destroy." 66 LL. Job's foolish understanding of the road to find real life is not right. My understanding is what I have to deal with this day, this set of circumstances. Foolish Understanding! So throw the anchor over in the midst of my storm and it will hold true. There is an Anchor in my raging storm. I just want the storm to go away instead of a sure and steady Anchor in my mess. Remember Crabb's quote in the First Love Letter---"You must now live between Anguish and Hope."
Saturday, July 26, 2025
206 "Three Terrifying Truths About Our Existence" Job 4-7; Acts 20
Friday, July 25, 2025
205 - "Unloaded of Everything I Worked Hard to Get" Job 1-2; Acts 19
The most influential man in all the East! And God asks Satan if he has noticed Job. And God says to Satan: “Do what you want with all that is his.” God invited Satan to wreak havoc on Job. God knows something I know not.
Thursday, July 24, 2025
204 - "Seek The Welfare of Others and Speak Peace to Them" Esterh 8-9; Acts 18
You know, some of us will be known by many, some of us will be known by a few. Some in palaces, still remembering where we came from---a gatekeeper. Some in huts, still longing for dry and safe land. God will place us in notoriety or obscurity. Yet, it's not the locality that sets us free. Esther 10:2 And all the acts of his power and might, and the full account of the high honor of Mordecai, to which the king advanced him, are they not written in the Book of the Chronicles of the kings of Media and Persia? Whether God has graced us with an audience of one or one thousand, our mission is the same. Mordecai sought the welfare of his people and spoke peace to all his people. May we seek the welfare of our family foremost and friends. And above all, may we speak peace.
Wednesday, July 23, 2025
203 - "Everything Is Under Divine Providence" Esther 7-8; Acts 17
Oh, the grandeur of King Ahasuerus. The epitome of treasures on earth.
And none of these riches will go with us. Esther 8:2. Not one thing.
Esther knew when she said "If I perish, I perish..."
She knew that she would take with her something far more precious than this life. Her tears were for her people not for herself. Esther knew. Is there Something I am missing in this life that I clutch too tightly?
Divine Providence rules through the Book of Esther.
Nothing escapes God's notice.
He was preparing Mordecai to rise up even when the king couldn't sleep.
The king could order 127 provinces.
The king could not order one hour of his own sleep.
God forces us every night to rest, whether we want it or not.
It is not our choice. We are held in His Divine Care.
"That which will break proud Haman's heart willl not break humble Morechai's sleep." M. Henry.
Divine Care is written all through the script.
What do I not know this day of Divine Providence over my life that I must consider?
Tuesday, July 22, 2025
202 - "Is Your Life Going Well? Plan A or Plan B?" Esther 4-6
202 - Christianity is a social policy to make life better on this earth rather than a redemptive plan to make people better in this life. Is it going well in this only life you have to live?
Huge Wealth. Stunning Splendor. Isn't that today's world. People want to be somebody on this earth. "Every man is master of his own house; whatever he says, goes." That's what the king ordered. Wonder why Persia didn't take the opportunity to return "home" to Judah. They "preferred the comforts a well-established secular lifestyle could provide." Sounds way-too-familiar! So they put pressure on the beautiful women to show up. That's not right. What about those of us with redemptive dignity who aren't glamour-filled---would we have made it in Persia? "Are they---or even am I---even interested in real holiness, in what You call holiness? Or are we mistaking tolerance and niceness and spiritual experiences for the deep change in the human soul that You desire? Most of us seem to think Christianity is a moral and social policy to make life better for people rather than a redemptive plan for making people better in this life." I am so grateful to God for His moving into my life in the midst of some suffering a few years ago to help me to really deal with deep change and let HIM change me way down deep as only He can. Ask my husband, my son who was still living at home, some of my friends, and they will tell you that I'm not who I was---and I'm on my face in gratitude. And I still have a long way to go but I have hope! So, like all of us, we sometimes ask Crabb's question; Is Your plan going well or not? What about about Plan B. Is it going well in my life, in your life? His Plan A? Or am I wrestling with all those Plan B's that surprise me and crop up? Radical Repentance.`The Providence of God has raised you up to your story this day. Plan A. "For such a time as this."
We may never live in a palace. We may never be called a queen. Does this kind of beauty hold happiness we know not? They were just as much at unrest as the lowly. Ahasuerus thought way too much of himself, his kingdom. There is such a compelling story in this book of Esther. To what end has God called us? Consider why He has left you where you are.
PHOTO: Grandchildren in Texas. Plan A? Plan B? They have no idea of the measurement of wealth.
Monday, July 21, 2025
201 - "God Has Left You Where You Are" Esther 1-3

Sunday, July 20, 2025
200 - "Left Behind in the Wake of Providence, Sow Seeds of Tears" Nehemiah 13; Acts 16
"Remember me, O my God, for good." Nehemiah 13:31
It's just too good to be true. A surprising deliverance of God's people out of such terrible distress. Most likely the author of Psalm 126 is Ezra himself according to commentaries. They have just experienced what is penned as the "most remarkable captivity" in history to date.
Psalm 126
The Song of Ascents---repeated twice cause it is doubly good.
A Calling to be thankful and it can be applied to our own lives. Psalm 126:3.
The harps hanging from the willow trees are pulled down.
"Providence pipes to them, and they dance." M. Henry
A turning again. And the people "thought ourselves like men that dream."
Mouths filled with laughter.
Tongues slipping out singing.
Hearts full vent to joy.
Glory to God.
And some rejoicing is with trembling,
for they bear on the sleeve of their hearts the "grievances that were yet to be redressed."
We are changed in a twinkling of an eye.
Yet, we must work out our salvation with fear and trembling.
For no change is overnight news.
May all of us who have been left behind in the wake of Providence,
may we turn again to God to perfect our salvation.
"The beginnings of mercy are encouragements to us to pray for the completing of it."
Come Lord Jesus.
The tears themselves are the seeds we must sow.
Sow in tears; reap in joy.
"Those who sow in the tears of godly sorrow shall reap in the joy of a sealed pardon and a settled peace." M. Henry
Wherever we find ourselves as we close these New Testament words today, O God, have mercy on our souls. And may Your mercy be the beginning of great encouragement today that You are present and completing our salvation for each of us. Do Your Perfect Work. May we sow the tears we've launched. May we reap the joy we know not.
Saturday, July 19, 2025
199 - The Sound of Rejoicing Heard Far Away" Nehemiah 11-12
Friday, July 18, 2025
198 - "Tender to the Word of God" Nehemiah 9-10; Acts 16
Live in the tension. Revive us, O God, in your ways, the psalmist once said. “We will not neglect the house of our God.” Neh 10:39. No hidden agendas in this crowd. All about advancing the Kingdom of God. Not about advancing own agendas. What stirs in me most deeply? Is it advancing God's Kingdom or my own? Is it about putting closure on these financial problems I have or revealing the character of God in the midst of them? Is it about getting people to recognize you, understand you, accept you into the "in" crowd or is it about revealing the Beautiful God for whom we live. 2,000 years pass and it's the same questons: Will you neglect the house of God? Will you neglect the temple of the Holy Spirit living in you?
I just love that! And I so want that!
That I would cry more over the Word than over my circumstance.
And God said, don't grieve.
The joy of the Lord is your strength.
It is the strength that comes from knowing Him and His Word.
Make it your chief study again cause I need the Strength
that only He can give. I just hit another low!
Thursday, July 17, 2025
197 - "Read The Word of God Aloud" Nehemiah 8; Acts 15
All the people gathered as though they were one in the square to read the Book. Nehemiah 8:1 Like friendly sardines in a can. Squished to gel as one. They implored Ezra to read on a soapbox. From Early Morning sunrise ... To the white hot Midday sun. Matthew Henry said it was an ordinance of God to read the Word aloud. Give sense to it. Understanding and good sense. "All that we hear must, however, be brought to the test of Scripture. They heard readily and minded every word. The Word of God demands our attention. If through carelessness we let much slip in hearing, there is danger that through forgetfulness we shall let all slip after hearing." Matthew Henry
Wednesday, July 16, 2025
196 - "Don't Make It Relevant, Make It Real" Nehemiah 7
Whether it is raining in our hearts, torrential rains,
Or if the clouds are pulled back for a day.
God has all of this set in motion for our gain.
May we so surrender to Divine Providence and His Way.
Nehemiah comes back to Jerusalem after he finishes building the wall. He has a great calling to build a city, not just a wall. Nehemiah 7:16. "Nehemiah knew that the safety of a city, under God, depends more upon the inhabitants than upon its walls." M.Henry. Nehemiah knew their biggest enemy was not on the other side of the wall but in their sinful hearts. Let us guard against sin. Let us guard against living for this present world. When did we start having to make things relevant to reach people? When did we start having to entertain people to draw them in? Lower the lights, soften the music, make the message relevant, and whatever do you, don't offend the churchgoers. Wondering this Sabbath Day what God thinks of all that is going on in the name of Christianity in our world today? Let's deal with our own hearts this Sabbath. Finish our own wall. Guard against our own sin. The Lord is near.
PHOTO: Torrential rains or pulled back clouds, God has set it all in motion. Make it real.
Tuesday, July 15, 2025
195 - “I Am Doing A Great Work” Nehemiah 4-6
Monday, July 14, 2025
194 - "Brick By Brick for the Little Broken People" Nehemiah 1-3
Cup-bearer to the King of Persia. Nehemiah lived in luxury. Wanting for nothing. The good life. A place of honor, sitting next to the King.
Yet.
He never forgot the suffering of his people. He heard of it. He went for it. He responded to it.
What can I do this day to show kindness to you? We all have problems---we live with ourselves, we know it. When a noble reaches down to a commoner, he makes the heart of God glad. No respecter of persons here. No big people and little people for Nehemiah. Just a very big heart for his God.
So.
He inquires about how they are really doing. Makes me want to go inquire.
And as soon as he hears, he presents his first application to God not man: Nehemiah 1:4 As soon as I heard these words I sat down and wept and mourned for days, and I continued fasting and praying before the God of heaven.
PHOTO: The Great Divide in my life. I will remember this story of Nehemiah 1 forever. It's a pivotal point for me. Another great divide of longing to pray. Present your 1st application to God not man.
Sunday, July 13, 2025
193 - "Hope For Our Sin" Ezra 9-10; Acts 12
Ezra 9:8-9 But now for a brief moment grace has been shown from the Lord our God, to leave us an escaped remnant and to give us a peg in His holy place, that our God may enlighten our eyes and grant us a little reviving. For we are slaves; yet in our bondage our God has not forsaken us, but has extended lovingkindness to us!!! I think we all live in far more bondage than we realize. What stirs within in the city where you live? C.S. Lewis said it: "We are far too easily pleased."
Dear God, We can be swept away by terrors in a moment. We can be filled with grace in that same one. Come Lord Jesus in our brief moments of this life You have appointed. Show us this day in the city where we live, a brief moment of grace.
There is Hope for our Sin. Ezra 10:2. Oh my goodness. This so speaks to me right where I am today. I may be 10 percent wrong in an argument, a disagreement, an exchange---however---if they are 90 percent wrong, I can only deal with myself. And God says it right here...hope for our sin.
“O my God, I am ashamed and blush to lift my face to you, my God, for our iniquities have risen higher than our heads, and our guilt has mounted up to the heavens. From the days of our fathers to this day we have been in great guilt. Ezra 9:6. And the LORD listened to them. That's it. God is listening to me this evening as I want to give up on Christmas and it hasn't even happened yet. What am I really saying? Sometimes, I think I'm saying that the pain is too great. And just how did I get to this place?
“The hand of our God is for good on all who seek him, and the power of his wrath is against all who forsake him.” We will never forsake our God. So, what's the alternative----either God's Hand is on us or not. And His Hand is on each of us this day for good. I have to believe that.
Ezra made confessions. Begged forgiveness.
Ezra 10:1
Therein lies the beauty of his obedient life.
Father, here is a telling story of Your mercy and kindness and love toward the life of this Ezra. May we apply ourselves to study the Word, to do the Word, to teach the Word. Help us this day dig deep within to make confession to you for missing the mark. Oh God, we long for Your Hand on our lives. Acceptance with peace for what You have gifted our way. I'm so shaken tonight by my own mess. Help us find a beautiful hope to press in, press on.
PHOTO: The city where I live. Austin. Peg by peg. Hope for our sin.
Saturday, July 12, 2025
192 - "Make Confessions" Ezra 7-8; Acts 11
Meanwhile.
This Ezra...
Skilled in the Law of Moses.
The Hand of the Lord his God was on Him.
Ezra 7:6
Yes, the Good Hand of his God was on him.
Ezra 7:9
For Ezra set his heart
to study the Law of the Lord,
and to do it & to teach God's Word in Israel.
Ezra 7:10
They took courage knowing the Hand of God was on them. Ezra 7:28. Wondering what God is saying about His Eye on my little life, on your little life this day.
Ezra read the Bible to the town from daybreak to noon and they listened attentively. Neh 8:3. What did they know that we don't?
PHOTO: A scroll from Jerusalem.
Friday, July 11, 2025
191 - "Plunged Into A Sea of Joy" Ezra 6; Acts 10
EZRA 6:22
The temple work was INTERRUPTED.
RESUMED.
The temple was COMPLETED.
DEDICATED.
EZRA 6:22 And they observed the Feast of Unleavened Bread seven days with joy, for the Lord had caused them to rejoice, and had turned the heart of the king of Assyria toward them to encourage them in the work of the house of God, the God of Israel.
Thursday, July 10, 2025
190 - "Don't Offer People Insights and Principles; Offer People a Redeemer" Ezra 4-5; Acts 9
Ezra 4:4-5 The Samaritans reared up their ugly heads at the building of the temple. Satan shows up to discourage and undermine and bribe those who want to do good. These returned revived revelers were beautiful exiles and so full of joy. But, they were so targeted by the enemy of their souls. Let us remember that that the god of this world seeks to devour our attempts to walk and worship. He is out looking for good intentions. And our fatal flaw is not looking into our own souls when opposition bombards our temples.
We are all looking for a Redeemer. But the nails and mortar and curtains and boards trap us into finding our worship on paths that are going straight to destruction---like the offer of these Samaritans. "We must not offer people a system of redemption, a set of insights and principles. We offer people a Redeemer." Paul David Tripp
the unmerciful young man who applauded Stephen's stoning, 7:58
the proud Pharisee who wreaked hail and havoc on the church, 8:3
the heartless blasphemer whose very breath slew slaughter, thrashed threats, 9:1.
No one would believe that this wretch could now be a follower.
Now.
"A chosen vessel unto God." Acts 9:15.
And I weep.
I weep for myself
who has been saved from myself.
I weep for my children
who need to be saved from themselves.
I weep for us all.
That we may bear The Name.
"This Signal Token of the Divine Favor of God,
by inward working of His Grace" (M. Henry)
in all of us!
We all admire things on this earth more than God.
We all want things more than we want God.
Wednesday, July 9, 2025
189 - "Don't Look for Coaches, Look for Elders to Lead You into the Presence of the Lord" Ezra 1-3
As we close the book of 2 Chronicles, we find a restored people in the book of Ezra longing for holiness, His Presence. Something happened to them in captivity---"suffering is necessary until evil is finally banished...suffering opens the holy space in your soul that will be filled only when you're dancing with Me..." 66 LL. And I'm reminded of Crabb's quote that ended the chapter: "Don't look for experts to coach you in how to make your life work before you follow elders who will lead you into My Presence." What are we really looking for in life? "I want My people to know this: if even in small ways you live to 'fix your life,' to arrange for your own pleasure in ways that violate holiness, your love for a better life now will eventually corrupt your love for Me." 66 LL. The question Jesus will ask in about 400 years comes to mind: John 1:38 - "What do you seek?" What do I seek this day?
Ezra 3:11 - And they sang responsively, praising and giving thanks to the Lord,
“For he is good,
for his steadfast love endures forever toward Israel.”
And all the people shouted with a great shout when they praised the Lord, because the foundation of the house of the Lord was laid. But the old men wept loud. Duplicity of voices coming out of captivity. What it must have felt like.
Have we inquired of God today to come alive, stay alive.
So much joy in my heart---it is God, if you only knew my circumstances.
It's the end of another year and a time of reflection.
I am so overwhelmed with what God has done in my life this year.
Col. 1:29 - What stirs in us? The Power of the Energy of Christ,
if we just let it be.
God stirred Ezra to rebuild the temple.
When they saw the foundation laid,
the people wept. Loud! Wonder why?
They loved Someone more than the blessings.
The priests and Levites, people who so desired to be holy,
they wept so hard, it was indistinguishable.
What beautiful passion if it was for God and not for themselves.
Who knows?
But I come back to the question . . .
What stirs in me today?
It's been one of the best years of my life.
And we've been stripped of quite a few things.
Stripped and filled by God.
Oh, to live like Ezra did:
"Ezra was deeply distressed by My people's compromise
more than by their troubles. His burden for holiness led to tears
of repentance and to his refusal to eat or drink as he grieved
My people's evil." 66LL
Oh, to live like that.
PHOTO: A tiny country church. Wish it were my husband’s church.
Tuesday, July 8, 2025
188 - "Urged to Return to God and Move Forward" 2 Chronicles 34-36
Sitting on a dock in a bay ... reflecting on moral evils vs. natural evils. II Chronicles 36:22 The Lord stirred up the spirit of Cyrus, King of Persia, and put His Words in his mouth. May the Lord be with each of us and let him go up.
And recognize Your stirrings.
Not our will but Yours.
Nor our own plans
Have Mercy!
Col 1:29
I LOVE how today's reading ends in 2 Chronicles 36:23 - "All who belong to God's people are urged to return—and may your God be with you! Move forward!"
PHOTO: The Dock where I go to pray.