My reply: I found God in my suffering. Who am I God? "Then King David went in and sat before the Lord and said, “Who am I, O Lord God, and what is my house, that you have brought me thus far?" 2Samuel 7:18. What is this life, that you have brought me thus far?
I didn't expect to find God today on that physician's gurney but a Great Physician was there. Right in the midst of the panic, a little anesthetic that awakened something needy in me. And my God clutched my hand.
Buechner said it today: "Pay Attention."
"The unexpected sound of your name on somebody's lips. The good dream. The odd coincidence. The moment that brings tears to your eyes. The person who brings life to your life. Maybe even the smallest events hold the greatest clues. If it is God we are looking for, as I suspect we all of us are, even if we don't think of it that way and wouldn't use such language on a bet, maybe the reason we haven't found Him is that we are not looking in the right places.
As a talisman or motto for that journey in search of a homeland, which is what faith is, I would settle for that too." "Pay Attention." Frederick Buechner
A text came to me while on that gurney and it read: "All of us are meant to reveal something about the heart of God." Dan Allender. And I wept. Because I hold thoughts of several who have told me strong just how wrong I've been in life as I've tried to do good. Wrong in theology. Wrong in methodology. Wrong in service. Wrong in achievement.
COME BOLDLY: Timeless Prayers
As we move one day closer to our homeland, make us strong deep down where it counts. May we pay attention to what stirs within, without, about. May we find you this day along the way.
PHOTO: I found God this white-hot day while crossing the tracks, pounding the pavement. Pay attention. God is here.
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